Curious Lo.0N

Best selling point, worst feeling

2009-06-19T15:06:00.002+08:00

It one of my best selling point yet my worst kinda feeling. I do not condemn people whom prefer to use other but recently i felt emptied. It like like when ever those u know who are u person find me it is all about using me like a tools. And no.... i am not smarter nor dumber i am just normal person. Then why me everytime? U imbecile just lazy to find sources and ask me to do instead. Feeling needed is a good feeling yet another type of betrayal. Y betrayal? It is as if ur being used like an item and throw away once the usage is finished. Zzzz...... altho i dun deny i use sum ppl like tat too haha.

Why diet never works for anyone

2009-05-23T20:38:00.002+08:00

According to discovery channel, anyone whom diet and lost 100 pound they will regain it within 5 years. This is due to the body is confuse between famine and diet. When we diet, it is telling the body that we are experiencing famine, and our defensive mechanism fights back by releasing Ghrelin, a type of hungry hormone to improve appetite. This defensive mechanism is a fail safe just in case if anyone whom wanted to starve them self to death. Therefore dieting never works in the long run unless with determination and discipline. Therefore most doctor do not ask obese people to diet instead they ask them to change their lifestyle. Every person body is differ from another and there is no single cure for all. For some just change their eating habit would just cut it, for some exercising helps bringing it down and some just move around more would have just cut it.

It sux to be a good guy

2009-04-10T09:55:00.002+08:00

Had u ever wondered y would it be sux to be a good person? Totally everything. It is just that it is tired to be used by other and not getting back wat u deserves. Yeap this is how life works. Every naive good guy would think that when effort is given then they will be rewarded. Totally bogus!! No matter how many effort u pour into sumthing, it may not bloom as u think. It is as if u plant a field of vegetable, but all of them eaten by caterpillar and stuff. It is as if sumthing pounded upon the stupid head of these guys by their parent and fairytale. And hey if i ever had son or daughter i would teach them to be evil! Good guy finish 1st, they say it is becoz they did good thing in previous life they had to die early. Weeeeeeeeeeee....... hey everyone u shud start to be evil now else next life sux.

It is total wuss to be a good person, no wonder my life still sux till now.

ps. i am not emo-ing just dun see any hope in life no more. End of story.

Final Frontier For FYP

2009-03-22T13:17:00.002+08:00

It been a hectic battle that i face, it seem that the light had left me, no longer shine, no longer alive, all i can see is just a glimpse of light from within a tunnel. Reaching it was impossible, i ran toward it, but it seem without end. Tell me, that i still alive. Dun tell me if i am dying, coz i dun wan to know. All seem to be lost, but there is always a glimpse of light no matter how far and endless it might seen, with determinations and the will of fire, everything is possible. No dream goes shatter without a fight. FIGHT ON. BURN!!!! MY FLAME OF GLORY.

Unfortunate Event

2009-03-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

The boundary of fragile mind are just so thin that it barely able to withstand hard ship in life, it pierce my heart how bad thing happened to my dearest frenz. Altho it was it's fault to begin with, meddling with frenz knew from the internet. Got drunk and sumthing bad happened. Alot people went thru such unfortunate event but lifes still goes on and on. Wat can i do to help? in this kind of situations only he or her self can help them self. It is out of my boundaries, wat happen had happened. Only thing i can say is take care and the rest is up to them to decide. let the lord be merciful on he / her soul.

personality test

2009-03-07T23:00:00.001+08:00

got nothing better to do, went to cyrus blog and found this so here is the result

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Medical Journal : FYP syndrome

2009-02-25T16:59:00.002+08:00

Recent study had found that university student had been found infected with a disease commonly known as FYP syndrome. These disease is deadly if not threated with proper medical therapy. Early symptom of this infectious disease are found as followed:
1.Emotional (depression, nausea , self-discriminations, low self esteem and etc)
2.Stressful
3. Absent minded
4. Temporary Amnesia
5.Procrastinations

Known treatment for these disease are as followed :
1. Time management (quickly do finish, quickly cure lo)
2. Hire gun (ask ppl do for u mai no nid fan lor)
3. If found stuck and unable to do anything, quickly change title and work harder.
4. Make supervisor/advisor happy
5. SUICIDE (not recommended by doctor nor blogger owner)

MIsguided Creature

2009-02-08T12:18:00.003+08:00

Human are one of those creature where often misguided by sense of inner self adjusting mechanism and words of trusted ones. In this world there ain't suppose who's wrong or rite. Often is judged upon the self adjusting mechanism, sumtimes with sense of twist and turns. Like old chinese saying that goes "公说公有理，婆说婆有理，有理说不清" which mean directly old man word had it's rationality, old women word had it's rationality too, even got rationality it is unable to clear up.

Justice! Moral! and Ethic!. These are the inner self adjusting mechanism. These are often based upon who threatened the basic right of one. Example like Whom killed whose family member must be brought to justice, but is it rite to punish other with the same punishment he did for other? it is weird to punish 1 with the same thing he did. Violence are then treated with violence? How stupid can this be? U banish violence with violence? Is this how u shud be? Violent only lead to more violent and the cycle keeps on going, u kill my family, i kill ur family. When will it end? Whats worst is when stupid misleading frenz keep on telling u that is rite to use violent to end violent but it never end.

No 1 can judge 1 another. But we did.

Live ur life

2009-02-07T15:00:00.002+08:00

It is funny how 2 unrelated thing came to be related, no matter wat u do. These thing had relationship which none can comprehend. Came to think of it, it is miracle that u meet sum 1 even as normal frenz. Like wat old Chinese phrases said "百世修来同渡船，千世修来共枕眠" mean 100 lifetime only can sit together in a boat, 1000 lifetime only can sleep together.

It is once wrong forever is wrong? Once bitten by snake, forever afraid of grass? We been thru alot of lifetime and deeds just to be coincidently met and became frenz even lover. Just bcoz of small misunderstanding then forever avoid each other?

It bother me how bad it feelz when ppl take relationship for granted. It just break like it is nothing but piece of crap. I know everyone tolerance had it's limit but hatred for sum1 had time limit too. It hurtz just to c how bad sum fren's relationship turns to be sour. So live ur life and learn to let go. Everything can be solved as long as u had heart and will to do it.

letting go.... hardest thing to do

2009-02-06T15:36:00.003+08:00

Sumtimes letting go is the hardest thing to do. Everyone is selfish, every actions had equal and opposite reactions. By being selfish, we won let go of sumthing. Sum won let go of hatred, sum won let go of love and sum won let go of wealth. There are many things in my life that i dun wan to let go, well.... no matter how unwilling i am. I nid to let it go.

But sum ppl are just retard to keep hatred in their heart, it is like stabbing a spike into their own heart and unwillingly pull it out. It is even more retarded when u did the same thing and advise ppl not to. All matter are small thing but it turns out to be biggies.

Why make things complicated? when it is just so simple? go fix it la retard!

True story : Uncommon Abuse

2008-11-20T14:40:00.003+08:00

It takes all kind to make the world, and there would be a kind where it seem to cruel and injustice. i won't be surprise that sum bitches would do sum thing like this. Yea u guys out there sure had heard a lot of women abuse, child abuse but how about father/husband abuse? I bet it is the least of the least thing u would heard about. This is the most uncommon 1 i heard around.

The story begins like this, that tramp was older than this dude. This dude was a bit moronic as he is pure and innocent. This tramp was rich to begin with, and her father seriously liked this guy for his honesty and pureness. I met this guys and seriously he is just a moron who pure and innocent to certain extend. Then it is not this dude wishes to marry this tramp as she is older and purely f**ked up. Her attitude is totally unbelievable wait till u heard his story 1st.

Ok then, this man and the tramp was married by blessing of the tramp father. This tramp treat this dude like shit for more than 2 decade. How shitty it was? It was terrible i tell u. At night(after having 2-3 children), the tramp no longer allow him to touch her and the tramp hid a knife/scissor under bed. If he dares to touch her, she promise to make him an eunuch (crastrated man/kembiri-ed) . Ok this was forgivable as she and him wasn't a lover to begin with. Then u know wat the tramp feed this dude? Worst than leftover. It was spoil food and how did i know? Personally went ahead and confirmed it before.

Thats not the worst, they are rich but treated this guy like shit, they give torn clothing to him, make him work like a dog, dun let him spend any money even he earned it himself and worst of all. That tramp teaches all his children to despise him. I personally saw wat the children did to him. Example : the father wave his hand saying goodbye to the child, and u know wat that f**cked up child did? point out the third finger and angrily looking at him. i was like WTF. Seriously u can treat a person worst than a dog? This is outraged to see such a thing happen although there might be worst case out there which is worst, this is so far the worst i seen yet.

Moral of the story? never be f**ked up by being honest person, instead be as evil as u can be. Honesty certainly is the worst policy.

Outcast Loon

2008-11-07T10:48:00.002+08:00

Geee.... seriously i think i am an outcast, exiled for life. Thing never been easy for me this life, it never was for anyone. A perfect life is a perfect lies. The more flawless it is, the worst it gets. Behind that shut door, we may never knew wat happen inside.

Different people had different agenda, u had ur needs and i had my needs. Use as u will but do not go overboard. Sometimes the society is scary, u may never know wats coming at ya. Joining it is a big mistake, there will be joy and there will be horror but never once be perfect. Not joining it would a social outcast forever hidden in the closet watching outside. So why fight it when u can join it?

Bcoz it was not easy to join it, life is so miserable when ur alone. I might be hikikomori, or so i thought. Or like a hermit hiding in a cave full of knowledge. There is always choices in life that we may choose to go to that distant or not. It safer to hide than surfaced.

Newton Third law of motion : Chapter Racist

2008-11-05T13:27:00.003+08:00

Yes i am a racist but the only difference is.... i admit it. Unlike most people whom say and do the opposite. Race A hate race B and race C hate race A and B. So wat wrong of admitting it? Yea every single fiber of ur well being lol. If yer publicly announce that ur a racist, u got smack by other racist. Yeap pretty darn rite i guess.

It took a racist to recognize a racist, and why so? Simple if u hate a racist ur turning into a racist too. For example, race A hate race B and following Newton third law of motions, every action is equal and opposite of reactions. Therefore to be hated is to hate.

And if u still arguing that ur not a racist to hate a racist then think of this, if u were marginalize by some race and they throw hurtful words at ya and u still not angry then ur not a a racist but if u did get racist then u will hate their comment. wat their mouth say is just words and it can be ignored but instead u choose to listen and got angry and grudge against them. and u start the racist war with another racist. Wat the different between u and racist?

Lucky day.... lucky to be alive

2008-11-01T00:48:00.002+08:00

Really lucky yesterday coz i almost died in an accident and almost forgot of the incident. Yesterday i receive a triple threat incident where suddenly a car reversed in front of me after the lorry past by, i was at a T junction and trying to go into the right side junctions. There was no car insight before the lorry passby and i tot i can straight go in after the lorry but i was darned wrong. As i turned into that junctions there was a car in front of me reversed into the main road and blocked me from entering into that junctions and there is also fast car coming straight to my left side now after i turn and also a van following me behind also trying to go into the junction and being the unlawful malaysian he din follow the white line and cross as my right side after i turned mean he followed by behind but side way. So i was stuck in front by the reversed car, there is fast car coming from my left side and a van to my rite side. In blink of an eye, my body reacted in a swift reactions so fast that i couldn't recall how and why i did that sudden turn to my right side and and pressed on accelerator and rushed to the reserved car side and entered the junctions. Now that i remember the incident i was shocked by my lightning reflexes. I din even know how i did it. And thanks to it i am still alive.

lil word for streamyx

2008-10-30T20:01:00.001+08:00

I am at my limit,
no more gimmick,
still using streamyx,
going to screamyx.

人心隔肚皮

2008-10-30T12:04:00.002+08:00

“人心隔肚皮“ a Chinese phrase describing heart is secluded within the body which mean it is hard to see through sum1 desire/thinking/heart. I din know wat did i do to deserve this, either he is truly evil or just being ignorant. I know the answer before asking him about it and he say he knew nothing of it. Wow.... this guy is just... pretentious, he know of an important information but he secluded it. Telling me knowing nothing of it. And how i know he is not telling me? Simple i asked another frenz before asking him and i confirmed that it is he tat told that frenz. Wat the hell? ok i know i not a close frenz to him but i din offended him b4 or maybe i did but i just dun realize it. zzzz...... hard to carefully know ppl liao this kind of ppl shud be avoided at all cost.

Why i am so timid?

2008-10-29T20:13:00.002+08:00

Why are thee so timid,
When life is so vivid,
none shall be frigid,
it make life void.

What is rite and wat is wrong?

2008-10-28T11:45:00.002+08:00

ahh.... nothing is rite or wrong, it is just how ur perception of how things works. No 1 really wrong nor no 1 really rite. When ur almighty and powerful ur always rite and other is always wrong. When people make u think ur wrong then ur wrong. If u think ur rite then ur rite. Simple as that. But it makes me wonder.... y sum ppl can just pretend nothing happens. Hmm..... unfortunately i forget awful alot of things in seconds, but there are sum particularly cannot forget. Am i holding grudge? or i just looking for sumthing else? i dunno the answer. Well gotta find it myself la. tata.....

Filial Son

2008-10-27T23:45:00.002+08:00

Am i 1 or not.... dun think so............ i know it is our responsibility to be filial to our parents. Yet i felt like i am not doing enuff, some people might think shower their parents with money and gift, it is call filial but i think parents rather see-ing their son/daughter more often rather than getting money and be lonely. Although they will be happy for ur success and happiness. And human will always be human, they never get satisfied with their demand so even ur parent dun ask for it. Stay home eat with them, laugh a bit, and share your daily life ruckus. There won be much time left, do it before you regret it.

Weee @v@ crazy day....

2008-10-26T10:44:00.001+08:00

gila adi ... post 4 post in 1 shot.....

Annoying Bunch

2008-10-26T10:35:00.002+08:00

gee.... i think i offended awful a lot of ppl with my prickly words.... altho sum say i getting less annoying lately but still kinda annoying.... lol seriously..... i think i got this gene from my dad.... his word is not prickly but SPIKY and deadly..... seriously y the i hell i talk bad about him? coz he give me bad gene.... geee....... but i did inherited sum good gene as well... his brilliants .... he never study b4 and yet know bunch of stuff (experience) and he just like me enjoy a good show of documentaries and war and politics..... i cannot compare my self to powerful geeks like bookworms... but i can say that i am very knowledgeable and know wide range of things. but all these thing cannot compensate the stupidity i had..... which is never able to be fake....... i mean adaptive haha.....

Life SUX

2008-10-26T10:22:00.003+08:00

err.... shame to say but i am a failure.... hoho..... yes i admit i fails to be a human beings.... human being is all about forgery.... fake identity.... fake boobs ..... fake personality...... fake everything la..... but i cannot fake everything argghh.... i am who i am... to change is to fake...... to fake is jsut an adaptive process of fitting in..... even my own family told me to be "fake". Argghh... this world is just utmost ugly.... my older family member had been working for too long and forget wat is it like to be pure and innocent.... u know wat they taught me? this is no laughing matter and it still sux to know it.... they told me "when ppl treat u eat and ask u is it nice with the food, u cannot say ok la, so so lo and etc. u must react in a happy way and say nice comment". wat the.... i know la out of courtesy u shud say nice.... but isn't it all fake? imagine everyone in this world lying about everything and masking everything... isn't that scary? if power was given to me, i will change this world but it is no longer the world i know, this world is harsh and full of obstacle..... that is y we always improve and developed..... so wats is wrong with being urself? absolutely everything, u cannot be ur self, u can only be an impressive image u wanna ppl think u r. Pathetic bastard. i still wanna be myself....

旁观者清，当局者迷

2008-10-26T10:10:00.005+08:00

when sumthing awful happens, it always make ppl think in a curvy lines.... they dun think straight at all, "旁观者清，当局者迷". it means when u r in that situations u always forget the basic of understanding the situations, u will lost in ur thought of revenge instead of thinking clearly wat is happening here? and other ppl whom is outside of the conflict do think clearly and try to find out wat is happening. But dun get me wrong ppl outside the conflict can be culled into the situations as well. Like sum1 i know.... they won know it they just blurred by anger and wrath.... ppl heart is hard to predict, there is always more than 2 version of story when it spread out. Ppl like to mix match their version of story as their level of understanding and their mentality is different so cannot be blame. Gossips is half true and all fake there is too much contaminant in their story. In life there is no fairness only power and evil prevails.... if ur smart and evil, thats make u dangerous. That is wat i lack of .... evilness..... my heart is pure and innocent to a certain degree la of coz, i not saint ok? even saint also not perfect ah.....

Gloomy dayz...

2008-10-26T09:58:00.002+08:00

no idea y.... so sad......... maybe coz i did sumthing i regret...... wat ppl say is true after all.... when u did sumthing good, u never get it back.... well i know of this and i dun really wan it to return any favour.... but still i help out..... but in the end i got hurtful comment instead.... i never got this kind of depress b4 so i kinda felta gonna expressa this stupid feeling..... few day had pass tho but still it lingers on.... like sum prick sticking on my heart.... and no idea y i still feel it still..... ppl always tell fairy tales of how u will be rewarded when u did good deed.... but fairy tale is totally crap there is no happy ending to anything at all except fairy tales....... this thought is torturing..... and i feel like crap now.... argghh.... i hope this stupida feelinga gonna vanisha........ zzzz may god release my torment.....

7 Deadly Sin

2008-09-18T15:18:00.006+08:00

Been busy lately, so hardly get to blog.... so it is time to write sum gibberish stuff that no 1 really care about. Well not all... sum will be moved and sum will be pissed but who cares?. well here goes... today gibberish is 7 deadly sin... Lust(luxuria), glutton(gula), greed(avaritia), sloth(acedia), wrath(ira), envy(invidia), and pride(superbia). Those in bracket are latin name. Are total opposite of 7 holy virtue... chastity, temperance, charity, diligence, patience, kindness, and humility.

We all are govern by 7 deadly sin, but only handful of ppl actually practices holy virtue as it was total nuts! to practice them. Well.... most properly it is not beneficial to anyone at all. Sum will ask, y kept being a good guy? instead of becoming high and mighty person. It doesn't earn u money instead it make u loose them. So wat wrong with that? helping ppl make u happy unless ur sadist. if everyone practices such virtue, the world will be peaceful.

Nah who am i kidding? world peace? dream on.... i hate pathetic bastard who keep saying world peace , world peace.... but had u ever think of the consequence if the world is not at war? Think of this, without war no 1 makes weapon, no 1 improves technologies, no 1 make profit from weapon, everyone lives more than 100 years old, populations explosion, the old had no income, the young nid to fight for jobs as senior is occupying the job all the time, everyone stay at same area for as long as they live, resource will be depleted, more pollutions, oil more expensive, world too cramp for all to live, all animal will be extinct due to over hunting, younger generations know shit about extinct animal, no privacy, and many more. Anymore thing i say , they will most properly kill me.

So wats wrong with virtue and sin? It both cannot exist without each other, the concept of ying and yang applies to all. Without lust there won be chastity, without glutton there won be temperance and so on. So wat the fuss about it? the problem is most pathetic human will gladly cover up everything which is bad, and forged virtue. Therefore it came to conclusion that all human wore a mask. Without EVIL there will be NO GOOD. Evil is a necessities to the world, it takes all kinds to make the world.

Because of Pride, we wore mask known as virtue, because of lust, we forget temperance, because of wrath we lost our temper, because of envy, we lost our sense of virtue, because of sloth, we lost all valuable time, because of glutton, we got fat, because of greed, the world falls in chaos, because of us.... the world is not longer safe.

We all wore a mask for every occasions, but all are to cover the true ugly faces of 7 deadly sins and virtue were quickly used to cover sins too. Because of past sin, we donate to charity to ease our hearts, because of sin, we pretend frigid to ease heart of loves one, because of sin, we pretend to be temperance, and so on..... u get the picture anyway.

Wats so wrong admitting ur bad? Even saint make mistake and commit sins... wat are u thinking? u wan to be god? sorry no can't do. Your a mortal, for god sake. Sum religion will offer to forgive them if they repent sincerely, but since all 7 sin are governing all our daily life it will be impossible to repent sincerely. No 1 could truly say.... i had never sinned..... without conscience it will just be the same, like sum practices . It doesn't matter wat had u commit, wats important is to repair wat u had done, repay those whom u hurt before, cherish those who supported u all these while, forgive all those whom sinned against u. Hope u guys not to be pathetic human who deny everything and practices every single sins. It is ok to be sinned but it is not ok to be lying about it and covering it. everyone makes mistake and we all knows. Those who cannot forgive u are pathetic humans whom thought he/she is god and never needed to repent themselves. Nobody in this world can be freed from sins. if u r out there i will be gladly pass judgment upon ur sinful soul.

sincerely dedicated to troubled frenz.