True story : Uncommon Abuse

It takes all kind to make the world, and there would be a kind where it seem to cruel and injustice. i won't be surprise that sum bitches would do sum thing like this. Yea u guys out there sure had heard a lot of women abuse, child abuse but how about father/husband abuse? I bet it is the least of the least thing u would heard about. This is the most uncommon 1 i heard around.

The story begins like this, that tramp was older than this dude. This dude was a bit moronic as he is pure and innocent. This tramp was rich to begin with, and her father seriously liked this guy for his honesty and pureness. I met this guys and seriously he is just a moron who pure and innocent to certain extend. Then it is not this dude wishes to marry this tramp as she is older and purely f**ked up. Her attitude is totally unbelievable wait till u heard his story 1st.

Ok then, this man and the tramp was married by blessing of the tramp father. This tramp treat this dude like shit for more than 2 decade. How shitty it was? It was terrible i tell u. At night(after having 2-3 children), the tramp no longer allow him to touch her and the tramp hid a knife/scissor under bed. If he dares to touch her, she promise to make him an eunuch (crastrated man/kembiri-ed) . Ok this was forgivable as she and him wasn't a lover to begin with. Then u know wat the tramp feed this dude? Worst than leftover. It was spoil food and how did i know? Personally went ahead and confirmed it before.

Thats not the worst, they are rich but treated this guy like shit, they give torn clothing to him, make him work like a dog, dun let him spend any money even he earned it himself and worst of all. That tramp teaches all his children to despise him. I personally saw wat the children did to him. Example : the father wave his hand saying goodbye to the child, and u know wat that f**cked up child did? point out the third finger and angrily looking at him. i was like WTF. Seriously u can treat a person worst than a dog? This is outraged to see such a thing happen although there might be worst case out there which is worst, this is so far the worst i seen yet.

Moral of the story? never be f**ked up by being honest person, instead be as evil as u can be. Honesty certainly is the worst policy.

Outcast Loon

Geee.... seriously i think i am an outcast, exiled for life. Thing never been easy for me this life, it never was for anyone. A perfect life is a perfect lies. The more flawless it is, the worst it gets. Behind that shut door, we may never knew wat happen inside.

Different people had different agenda, u had ur needs and i had my needs. Use as u will but do not go overboard. Sometimes the society is scary, u may never know wats coming at ya. Joining it is a big mistake, there will be joy and there will be horror but never once be perfect. Not joining it would a social outcast forever hidden in the closet watching outside. So why fight it when u can join it?

Bcoz it was not easy to join it, life is so miserable when ur alone. I might be hikikomori, or so i thought. Or like a hermit hiding in a cave full of knowledge. There is always choices in life that we may choose to go to that distant or not. It safer to hide than surfaced.

Newton Third law of motion : Chapter Racist

Yes i am a racist but the only difference is.... i admit it. Unlike most people whom say and do the opposite. Race A hate race B and race C hate race A and B. So wat wrong of admitting it? Yea every single fiber of ur well being lol. If yer publicly announce that ur a racist, u got smack by other racist. Yeap pretty darn rite i guess.

It took a racist to recognize a racist, and why so? Simple if u hate a racist ur turning into a racist too. For example, race A hate race B and following Newton third law of motions, every action is equal and opposite of reactions. Therefore to be hated is to hate.

And if u still arguing that ur not a racist to hate a racist then think of this, if u were marginalize by some race and they throw hurtful words at ya and u still not angry then ur not a a racist but if u did get racist then u will hate their comment. wat their mouth say is just words and it can be ignored but instead u choose to listen and got angry and grudge against them. and u start the racist war with another racist. Wat the different between u and racist?

Lucky day.... lucky to be alive

Really lucky yesterday coz i almost died in an accident and almost forgot of the incident. Yesterday i receive a triple threat incident where suddenly a car reversed in front of me after the lorry past by, i was at a T junction and trying to go into the right side junctions. There was no car insight before the lorry passby and i tot i can straight go in after the lorry but i was darned wrong. As i turned into that junctions there was a car in front of me reversed into the main road and blocked me from entering into that junctions and there is also fast car coming straight to my left side now after i turn and also a van following me behind also trying to go into the junction and being the unlawful malaysian he din follow the white line and cross as my right side after i turned mean he followed by behind but side way. So i was stuck in front by the reversed car, there is fast car coming from my left side and a van to my rite side. In blink of an eye, my body reacted in a swift reactions so fast that i couldn't recall how and why i did that sudden turn to my right side and and pressed on accelerator and rushed to the reserved car side and entered the junctions. Now that i remember the incident i was shocked by my lightning reflexes. I din even know how i did it. And thanks to it i am still alive.

lil word for streamyx

I am at my limit,
no more gimmick,
still using streamyx,
going to screamyx.

人心隔肚皮

“人心隔肚皮“ a Chinese phrase describing heart is secluded within the body which mean it is hard to see through sum1 desire/thinking/heart. I din know wat did i do to deserve this, either he is truly evil or just being ignorant. I know the answer before asking him about it and he say he knew nothing of it. Wow.... this guy is just... pretentious, he know of an important information but he secluded it. Telling me knowing nothing of it. And how i know he is not telling me? Simple i asked another frenz before asking him and i confirmed that it is he tat told that frenz. Wat the hell? ok i know i not a close frenz to him but i din offended him b4 or maybe i did but i just dun realize it. zzzz...... hard to carefully know ppl liao this kind of ppl shud be avoided at all cost.

Why i am so timid?

Why are thee so timid,
When life is so vivid,
none shall be frigid,
it make life void.

What is rite and wat is wrong?

ahh.... nothing is rite or wrong, it is just how ur perception of how things works. No 1 really wrong nor no 1 really rite. When ur almighty and powerful ur always rite and other is always wrong. When people make u think ur wrong then ur wrong. If u think ur rite then ur rite. Simple as that. But it makes me wonder.... y sum ppl can just pretend nothing happens. Hmm..... unfortunately i forget awful alot of things in seconds, but there are sum particularly cannot forget. Am i holding grudge? or i just looking for sumthing else? i dunno the answer. Well gotta find it myself la. tata.....

Filial Son

Am i 1 or not.... dun think so............ i know it is our responsibility to be filial to our parents. Yet i felt like i am not doing enuff, some people might think shower their parents with money and gift, it is call filial but i think parents rather see-ing their son/daughter more often rather than getting money and be lonely. Although they will be happy for ur success and happiness. And human will always be human, they never get satisfied with their demand so even ur parent dun ask for it. Stay home eat with them, laugh a bit, and share your daily life ruckus. There won be much time left, do it before you regret it.

Weee @v@ crazy day....

gila adi ... post 4 post in 1 shot.....

Annoying Bunch

gee.... i think i offended awful a lot of ppl with my prickly words.... altho sum say i getting less annoying lately but still kinda annoying.... lol seriously..... i think i got this gene from my dad.... his word is not prickly but SPIKY and deadly..... seriously y the i hell i talk bad about him? coz he give me bad gene.... geee....... but i did inherited sum good gene as well... his brilliants .... he never study b4 and yet know bunch of stuff (experience) and he just like me enjoy a good show of documentaries and war and politics..... i cannot compare my self to powerful geeks like bookworms... but i can say that i am very knowledgeable and know wide range of things. but all these thing cannot compensate the stupidity i had..... which is never able to be fake....... i mean adaptive haha.....

Life SUX

err.... shame to say but i am a failure.... hoho..... yes i admit i fails to be a human beings.... human being is all about forgery.... fake identity.... fake boobs ..... fake personality...... fake everything la..... but i cannot fake everything argghh.... i am who i am... to change is to fake...... to fake is jsut an adaptive process of fitting in..... even my own family told me to be "fake". Argghh... this world is just utmost ugly.... my older family member had been working for too long and forget wat is it like to be pure and innocent.... u know wat they taught me? this is no laughing matter and it still sux to know it.... they told me "when ppl treat u eat and ask u is it nice with the food, u cannot say ok la, so so lo and etc. u must react in a happy way and say nice comment". wat the.... i know la out of courtesy u shud say nice.... but isn't it all fake? imagine everyone in this world lying about everything and masking everything... isn't that scary? if power was given to me, i will change this world but it is no longer the world i know, this world is harsh and full of obstacle..... that is y we always improve and developed..... so wats is wrong with being urself? absolutely everything, u cannot be ur self, u can only be an impressive image u wanna ppl think u r. Pathetic bastard. i still wanna be myself....

旁观者清，当局者迷

when sumthing awful happens, it always make ppl think in a curvy lines.... they dun think straight at all, "旁观者清，当局者迷". it means when u r in that situations u always forget the basic of understanding the situations, u will lost in ur thought of revenge instead of thinking clearly wat is happening here? and other ppl whom is outside of the conflict do think clearly and try to find out wat is happening. But dun get me wrong ppl outside the conflict can be culled into the situations as well. Like sum1 i know.... they won know it they just blurred by anger and wrath.... ppl heart is hard to predict, there is always more than 2 version of story when it spread out. Ppl like to mix match their version of story as their level of understanding and their mentality is different so cannot be blame. Gossips is half true and all fake there is too much contaminant in their story. In life there is no fairness only power and evil prevails.... if ur smart and evil, thats make u dangerous. That is wat i lack of .... evilness..... my heart is pure and innocent to a certain degree la of coz, i not saint ok? even saint also not perfect ah.....

Gloomy dayz...

no idea y.... so sad......... maybe coz i did sumthing i regret...... wat ppl say is true after all.... when u did sumthing good, u never get it back.... well i know of this and i dun really wan it to return any favour.... but still i help out..... but in the end i got hurtful comment instead.... i never got this kind of depress b4 so i kinda felta gonna expressa this stupid feeling..... few day had pass tho but still it lingers on.... like sum prick sticking on my heart.... and no idea y i still feel it still..... ppl always tell fairy tales of how u will be rewarded when u did good deed.... but fairy tale is totally crap there is no happy ending to anything at all except fairy tales....... this thought is torturing..... and i feel like crap now.... argghh.... i hope this stupida feelinga gonna vanisha........ zzzz may god release my torment.....

7 Deadly Sin

Been busy lately, so hardly get to blog.... so it is time to write sum gibberish stuff that no 1 really care about. Well not all... sum will be moved and sum will be pissed but who cares?. well here goes... today gibberish is 7 deadly sin... Lust(luxuria), glutton(gula), greed(avaritia), sloth(acedia), wrath(ira), envy(invidia), and pride(superbia). Those in bracket are latin name. Are total opposite of 7 holy virtue... chastity, temperance, charity, diligence, patience, kindness, and humility.

We all are govern by 7 deadly sin, but only handful of ppl actually practices holy virtue as it was total nuts! to practice them. Well.... most properly it is not beneficial to anyone at all. Sum will ask, y kept being a good guy? instead of becoming high and mighty person. It doesn't earn u money instead it make u loose them. So wat wrong with that? helping ppl make u happy unless ur sadist. if everyone practices such virtue, the world will be peaceful.

Nah who am i kidding? world peace? dream on.... i hate pathetic bastard who keep saying world peace , world peace.... but had u ever think of the consequence if the world is not at war? Think of this, without war no 1 makes weapon, no 1 improves technologies, no 1 make profit from weapon, everyone lives more than 100 years old, populations explosion, the old had no income, the young nid to fight for jobs as senior is occupying the job all the time, everyone stay at same area for as long as they live, resource will be depleted, more pollutions, oil more expensive, world too cramp for all to live, all animal will be extinct due to over hunting, younger generations know shit about extinct animal, no privacy, and many more. Anymore thing i say , they will most properly kill me.

So wats wrong with virtue and sin? It both cannot exist without each other, the concept of ying and yang applies to all. Without lust there won be chastity, without glutton there won be temperance and so on. So wat the fuss about it? the problem is most pathetic human will gladly cover up everything which is bad, and forged virtue. Therefore it came to conclusion that all human wore a mask. Without EVIL there will be NO GOOD. Evil is a necessities to the world, it takes all kinds to make the world.

Because of Pride, we wore mask known as virtue, because of lust, we forget temperance, because of wrath we lost our temper, because of envy, we lost our sense of virtue, because of sloth, we lost all valuable time, because of glutton, we got fat, because of greed, the world falls in chaos, because of us.... the world is not longer safe.

We all wore a mask for every occasions, but all are to cover the true ugly faces of 7 deadly sins and virtue were quickly used to cover sins too. Because of past sin, we donate to charity to ease our hearts, because of sin, we pretend frigid to ease heart of loves one, because of sin, we pretend to be temperance, and so on..... u get the picture anyway.

Wats so wrong admitting ur bad? Even saint make mistake and commit sins... wat are u thinking? u wan to be god? sorry no can't do. Your a mortal, for god sake. Sum religion will offer to forgive them if they repent sincerely, but since all 7 sin are governing all our daily life it will be impossible to repent sincerely. No 1 could truly say.... i had never sinned..... without conscience it will just be the same, like sum practices . It doesn't matter wat had u commit, wats important is to repair wat u had done, repay those whom u hurt before, cherish those who supported u all these while, forgive all those whom sinned against u. Hope u guys not to be pathetic human who deny everything and practices every single sins. It is ok to be sinned but it is not ok to be lying about it and covering it. everyone makes mistake and we all knows. Those who cannot forgive u are pathetic humans whom thought he/she is god and never needed to repent themselves. Nobody in this world can be freed from sins. if u r out there i will be gladly pass judgment upon ur sinful soul.

sincerely dedicated to troubled frenz.

gg luuu..... got sumthing weird on my neck

Yesterday i had a pain like electric shocking my tendon across shoulder blade and neck. Then i was unable to lift anything heavy. Then came to my surprise that i had a lymph nodes/lump on my neck tendon. GG luuu........ can be many thing wei..... can be cancer, can be negative tumor, can be harmless nodes.

dad say it is just normal heaty + common tendon injuries. well i pretty hope it is just normal stuff else i won be a goner wei......

p.s. still alive

Family tree of Ah Long

If ur Malaysian u shud know wat is Ah long and if u do not know, it is known as shark loan. Why is it call ah long , seriously no idea but i heard some speak of ah long who is a loan shark about few decade ago in kuala lumpur, he was infamously known for his shark loan activities. Therefore it was known as Ah Long till this day. Ok enuff for intro, lets start with the family of ah long.

Ah long had 1 brother, 1 sista, 1 cousin and many other. AEIOU, Ah ling and Ah lung is Ah long brother and sista. Ah Lang is Ah long far distance cousin while Ah Leng is ah Long cousin. but ah long got alot cousin, that y he so famous for his shark loan activities, ah long got many "LENG" (cantonese AKA cronies).

Haha damned "mou liu", gotten this idea while chatting with gling. Ah long pls dun find me i dunno ur family de.

When every1 is right, every1 is wrong

Had this thought ever occur to u? when wat he/she say is right and wat u say is right too. But in fact both are wrong at the same time. Confuse? u better be else i waste time writing this out.
Why would i say both is right and wrong at the same time? Simple, both of u think ur right and both of the u think the opposite side is wrong. Thus, making u both right and wrong at the same time.
Well to everyone, most of the time they never accept other's thought. Wat might concern u does not concern him/her. wat her concern does not concern u. To put it simple, thing doesn't goes both ways to individual.
In fact everything goes everywhere. Who said they are absolutely right? Yea at least until proven wrong. In this world nothings is absolute. Things change in the blink of an eye. Little example would be, thing can be viewed in other ways. If ur negative u call half filled cup as half empty, and if ur positive u call it half full.
Different ppl had different perception, not everyone is RIGHT nor WRONG.

Why did i even start a blog for?

Seriously i had no idea why i starting a blog for, maybe coz there is absolutely nothing to do ghua. Every time i had a bunch of stuff going on my head, curiosity struck on my head as if tons of informations flowing through. Hmm.... so lets go back to my questions? y did i start a blog? hmmm obviously cuz i had nothing better to do. Haha